What's the good news?
Hi! I had a very long day out exploring our nation's capital with Heyer, my sister, and another friend. It was a lot of fun. We went to the Museum of Natural History, and the monument, and the zoo, even though the animals were gone for the day already. There was lots of exercise, and fond memories of riding the subway train.
We had a very interesting start, missed the proper exit, then ended up near the city, where we missed the OTHER exit, and then we were lost for a good bit of time before calling and asking for help from our parents. I felt the frustration of everyone in the car, but it was strange, I was seriously not feeling it. I was laughing inside. Mainly because I felt like it was an adventure. It was fun to me. That was the best part of the whole day to me, getting lost. I saw lots of stuff and was having a good time. But everyone else was letting it get to them so I guess we had to get on the right track. Haha
I really wish we'd had more time today. I got a chance to remember why I was friends with those guys in the first place, and that really means something to me because I have been drawing away from people a lot recently. Good times, good times.
I guess all I have to look forward to now is a wonderful day at work and a much needed, and much wanted good night's rest! I may not post tomorrow, depending on how exhausted I am. So if not, I will talk to you on Sunday!!!
Apr 30, 2010
Apr 29, 2010
Day 60! (Day 60:4/29/10)
What is the good news?
Hello all! HAPPY DAY 60! I am so very sleepy! But I refuse to miss a post on this lucky lucky day 60. So without further ado, let's go through the report.
1)Enjoy being physically active.
2)Enjoy healthy foods.
3)Gain and love a unique, fun, flirty fashion sense.
4)Have the ability to afford all the material wants, yet still be able to save for the future.
5)Make friends who are supportive, positive, like-minded, and honest.
6)Proudly receive all A's in all of my classes.
1) This is one that I am most proud about currently! I have been exercising AT LEAST 3 times a week, which is far more than I'm used to. I feel energized and good after work outs. I usually do almost 2 miles with several reps of push up, situps, and other things like that. I have been keeping track of it all on the Presidential Fitness website. It's a lot of fun and I am also learning the choreography from Janet Jackson's "All for you" which is great exercise. I am enjoying the greatness of an active lifestyle.
2) I really like fruit!
3) I have been asking around my girlfriends for fashion advice, and they have agreed to help me out, which is awesome!
4) So a lot has been going on with my job. As school dwindles down, I will have a lot more time to go work, and I already have been working more hours because of the woman who quit. This week another of my co-workers has gone to get surgery so i have been working a lot a lot, which would explain why the posts have been pretty short. I really do feel like I can afford everything. I am just waiting for my new financial aid thingy to come in, so I can get started on that.
5) I haven't really made any new friends lately. But I have been reconnecting with older friends from the past a lot lately. It's pretty good to find out what everyone has been up to. I feel a lot more confident now. So I don't necessarily feel like I NEED to make friends. It's all good.
6)MUST I SAY ANYTHING? ALL A's!!!!
Hello all! HAPPY DAY 60! I am so very sleepy! But I refuse to miss a post on this lucky lucky day 60. So without further ado, let's go through the report.
1)Enjoy being physically active.
2)Enjoy healthy foods.
3)Gain and love a unique, fun, flirty fashion sense.
4)Have the ability to afford all the material wants, yet still be able to save for the future.
5)Make friends who are supportive, positive, like-minded, and honest.
6)Proudly receive all A's in all of my classes.
1) This is one that I am most proud about currently! I have been exercising AT LEAST 3 times a week, which is far more than I'm used to. I feel energized and good after work outs. I usually do almost 2 miles with several reps of push up, situps, and other things like that. I have been keeping track of it all on the Presidential Fitness website. It's a lot of fun and I am also learning the choreography from Janet Jackson's "All for you" which is great exercise. I am enjoying the greatness of an active lifestyle.
2) I really like fruit!
3) I have been asking around my girlfriends for fashion advice, and they have agreed to help me out, which is awesome!
4) So a lot has been going on with my job. As school dwindles down, I will have a lot more time to go work, and I already have been working more hours because of the woman who quit. This week another of my co-workers has gone to get surgery so i have been working a lot a lot, which would explain why the posts have been pretty short. I really do feel like I can afford everything. I am just waiting for my new financial aid thingy to come in, so I can get started on that.
5) I haven't really made any new friends lately. But I have been reconnecting with older friends from the past a lot lately. It's pretty good to find out what everyone has been up to. I feel a lot more confident now. So I don't necessarily feel like I NEED to make friends. It's all good.
6)MUST I SAY ANYTHING? ALL A's!!!!
Apr 28, 2010
As the Semester End draws near... (Day 59: 4/28/20)
What's the good news?
As anticipated, I ACED my last Bio test and I'm exempt from the final! I actually got 114 points out of 110! How cool is that? Also, I have done the math from my other classes and I know that I will have A's for those class! It won't be long before my new classes start, and I will be acing those as well.
I've been called into work a lot more this week and lately, meaning that I am making more money, which coincides with another of my goals! I am in the state of allowance, and it feels so good! I am excited about transferring in the fall. I'll be able to afford it all and I will be entering a new atmosphere with confidence and happiness. It's all so very great.
Day 60 is tomorrow, so there will be a nice report. I have fun adventure plans for Friday, so stick with me, it's going to be an exciting weekend!!
As anticipated, I ACED my last Bio test and I'm exempt from the final! I actually got 114 points out of 110! How cool is that? Also, I have done the math from my other classes and I know that I will have A's for those class! It won't be long before my new classes start, and I will be acing those as well.
I've been called into work a lot more this week and lately, meaning that I am making more money, which coincides with another of my goals! I am in the state of allowance, and it feels so good! I am excited about transferring in the fall. I'll be able to afford it all and I will be entering a new atmosphere with confidence and happiness. It's all so very great.
Day 60 is tomorrow, so there will be a nice report. I have fun adventure plans for Friday, so stick with me, it's going to be an exciting weekend!!
Apr 27, 2010
How Now Brown Cow (Day 58: 4/27/10)
What's the good news?
Hey everyone! Really happy to report that the confident walk I achieved a few days ago is still present and getting stronger each time. I am enjoying not feeling self-conscious when others see me out and about. I smile and keep on my way instead of putting my head down and rounding my shoulders. My back and posture are thanking the self-hypnosis as well!
You know something? Today I had a very interesting epiphany. It involves worrying about what others think of you. It all started on the way to my class today. I caught site of a dude in a car. Now I don't know if he was REALLY someone I recognized, or just looked like someone I recognized, but that doesn't matter. It spawned a series of memories of this guy who when we were younger, was my sometimes acquaintance. I remember that he talked to me sometimes in middle school and the conversation was pleasant. But then one day I'm not really sure why, but he lashed out at me verbally, and I stayed away from him ever since. I guess you could say that I had been forming some kind of a crush on him and I was entirely hurt by his words, so I felt rejected even though he had no clue that I liked him.
Then came high school, and suddenly he was in a new crowd of people. None of this really matters to what I'm getting at here. Bottom line, I had a thought. "Oh if he would just see me now, how pretty I've become, how smart and sophisticated. How articulate I've become. I'm such a different person and he would be attracted to me"
I stopped. A voice entered my head from direction right, I swear, and it said to me, "Maybe there is a specific girl he is attracted to. Maybe you aren't her. Why do you REALLY wonder about if he were to see you now? Do you really want him to like and be attracted to you? Really?"
And I realized, that all I really felt was a want of social acceptance. I realized that I only wanted him to realize the changes that I've made for myself. It wasn't long before I concluded that these thoughts weren't productive. I have been building up this confidence for a long time and yet I still need social acceptance? Nu uh. I am on a mission to accept me. What other people think of me is neither relevant or important. As CharmingPixieFlora says, "What others think of you is none of your business" and I believe that this is so true.
So get out of other people's head and listen to what's within your own! That is my advice for today. Follow it, or do as you see fit. Either way, strive to do what? FEEL GOOD NOW. As I do, and as do all the others who are creating their own realities and living actively with fantastic and great results.
We've made it so far, let's not stop now!!!!
Hey everyone! Really happy to report that the confident walk I achieved a few days ago is still present and getting stronger each time. I am enjoying not feeling self-conscious when others see me out and about. I smile and keep on my way instead of putting my head down and rounding my shoulders. My back and posture are thanking the self-hypnosis as well!
You know something? Today I had a very interesting epiphany. It involves worrying about what others think of you. It all started on the way to my class today. I caught site of a dude in a car. Now I don't know if he was REALLY someone I recognized, or just looked like someone I recognized, but that doesn't matter. It spawned a series of memories of this guy who when we were younger, was my sometimes acquaintance. I remember that he talked to me sometimes in middle school and the conversation was pleasant. But then one day I'm not really sure why, but he lashed out at me verbally, and I stayed away from him ever since. I guess you could say that I had been forming some kind of a crush on him and I was entirely hurt by his words, so I felt rejected even though he had no clue that I liked him.
Then came high school, and suddenly he was in a new crowd of people. None of this really matters to what I'm getting at here. Bottom line, I had a thought. "Oh if he would just see me now, how pretty I've become, how smart and sophisticated. How articulate I've become. I'm such a different person and he would be attracted to me"
I stopped. A voice entered my head from direction right, I swear, and it said to me, "Maybe there is a specific girl he is attracted to. Maybe you aren't her. Why do you REALLY wonder about if he were to see you now? Do you really want him to like and be attracted to you? Really?"
And I realized, that all I really felt was a want of social acceptance. I realized that I only wanted him to realize the changes that I've made for myself. It wasn't long before I concluded that these thoughts weren't productive. I have been building up this confidence for a long time and yet I still need social acceptance? Nu uh. I am on a mission to accept me. What other people think of me is neither relevant or important. As CharmingPixieFlora says, "What others think of you is none of your business" and I believe that this is so true.
So get out of other people's head and listen to what's within your own! That is my advice for today. Follow it, or do as you see fit. Either way, strive to do what? FEEL GOOD NOW. As I do, and as do all the others who are creating their own realities and living actively with fantastic and great results.
We've made it so far, let's not stop now!!!!
Apr 26, 2010
Untitled (Day 57: 4/26/10)
What's the good news?
I guess I can't really say much else but.....YAY!!!!!!!! I found my last Biology test so easy this morning! As per usual I woke up and studied the material right before the test, but this unit was a heck of a lot more difficult than the others! I am so feeling very good right now! I mean, with this test, I will be exempt from the final exam! ---AND I get an A in the class!!! YES! I am very excited in case you couldn't tell.
All A's is looking so good right now. So good. The Law of Attraction rocks my life.
I guess I can't really say much else but.....YAY!!!!!!!! I found my last Biology test so easy this morning! As per usual I woke up and studied the material right before the test, but this unit was a heck of a lot more difficult than the others! I am so feeling very good right now! I mean, with this test, I will be exempt from the final exam! ---AND I get an A in the class!!! YES! I am very excited in case you couldn't tell.
All A's is looking so good right now. So good. The Law of Attraction rocks my life.
Apr 25, 2010
Self-Hypnosis (Day 56: 4/25/10)
What's the good news?
So real quick because I have a buttload (is it okay to say buttload? haha) of stuff toget done for tomorrow and it's already 11.
I just wanted to tell you about something that I have been trying for the past couple of nights and how it's working. I have been trying self-hypnosis/binaural beats every night before I go to sleep. I particularly have been using videos on Youtube that are geared towards building confidence. I have been using them every night WHILE I go to sleep for the past 3 or 4 nights. How pleasant! I know I can't just jump off the bridge and yell: IT WORKS! But well....
Let's just say the past few days there has been more pep in my step. I've noticed that I walk with my head held high, and my posture a lot straighter when I address or am addressed by other people. It's pretty cool. I am going to continue for a little while and then report on it for a more accurate review of it.
If you're having trouble sleeping, I suggest trying the binaural beats. Strangely enough, they are calming and if you lie still, you'll be sleep before you know it!
If there's something that you actually want to fix inside, let's say "re-program" in your brain, I suggest self-hypnosis. There are a lot of videos on Youtube for many different things. You can find self-hypnosis videos for confidence, creativity, sleep, de-stressing, weight loss...there's a lot of them. So if you are in wanting, give it a try!
Plus there's always guided meditations, which are just as good, but I don't recommend you doing it when you're sleepy. You don't want to fall asleep when you are meditating, as opposed to hypnosis etc. etc.
I bet there's something there for you if you really want, go ahead and give it a looksee.
On that note, I wish you a pleasant night, and a pleasant tomorrow.
So real quick because I have a buttload (is it okay to say buttload? haha) of stuff toget done for tomorrow and it's already 11.
I just wanted to tell you about something that I have been trying for the past couple of nights and how it's working. I have been trying self-hypnosis/binaural beats every night before I go to sleep. I particularly have been using videos on Youtube that are geared towards building confidence. I have been using them every night WHILE I go to sleep for the past 3 or 4 nights. How pleasant! I know I can't just jump off the bridge and yell: IT WORKS! But well....
Let's just say the past few days there has been more pep in my step. I've noticed that I walk with my head held high, and my posture a lot straighter when I address or am addressed by other people. It's pretty cool. I am going to continue for a little while and then report on it for a more accurate review of it.
If you're having trouble sleeping, I suggest trying the binaural beats. Strangely enough, they are calming and if you lie still, you'll be sleep before you know it!
If there's something that you actually want to fix inside, let's say "re-program" in your brain, I suggest self-hypnosis. There are a lot of videos on Youtube for many different things. You can find self-hypnosis videos for confidence, creativity, sleep, de-stressing, weight loss...there's a lot of them. So if you are in wanting, give it a try!
Plus there's always guided meditations, which are just as good, but I don't recommend you doing it when you're sleepy. You don't want to fall asleep when you are meditating, as opposed to hypnosis etc. etc.
I bet there's something there for you if you really want, go ahead and give it a looksee.
On that note, I wish you a pleasant night, and a pleasant tomorrow.
Apr 24, 2010
Morning Gardening (Day 55: 4/24/10)
What's the good news?
Hey, I found another technique that is really good for focus and concentration. Gardening! You pretty much get the same effects you do as when you are meditating. Or at least, I did. It was a lot of fun and it was so so calming.
Pretty much I dug up a few things, and moved a lot of stuff around. I planted my Moon Flowers and Sunflowers. I also planted some Sage and Thyme. I hope that it wasn't too soon to do it. I plan on planted my other stuff next week. I hope everything goes well. I have never been serious about gardening but this year I have this sudden interest in it. I mean come on, helping create life, nurturing it and watching it grow? I say, all of those 13 years old prancing around on Maury Povich talkin' bout, "I wanna have a baby" and all that nonsense, ought to take up gardening....seriously.
And that's all I have to say about that.
I plan on doing more in my garden tomorrow morning, weather permitting. I need to go buy some more soil. Can't wait, can't wait!
Hey, I found another technique that is really good for focus and concentration. Gardening! You pretty much get the same effects you do as when you are meditating. Or at least, I did. It was a lot of fun and it was so so calming.
Pretty much I dug up a few things, and moved a lot of stuff around. I planted my Moon Flowers and Sunflowers. I also planted some Sage and Thyme. I hope that it wasn't too soon to do it. I plan on planted my other stuff next week. I hope everything goes well. I have never been serious about gardening but this year I have this sudden interest in it. I mean come on, helping create life, nurturing it and watching it grow? I say, all of those 13 years old prancing around on Maury Povich talkin' bout, "I wanna have a baby" and all that nonsense, ought to take up gardening....seriously.
And that's all I have to say about that.
I plan on doing more in my garden tomorrow morning, weather permitting. I need to go buy some more soil. Can't wait, can't wait!
Apr 23, 2010
Fun Day (Day 54: 4/23/10)
What's the good news?
Oh my, me! I just had a really great day. I relaxed, I cooked a fantabulous pot of chili that was enjoyed by those I love, and I got some neat gardening tips!
I started off my day by getting business out of the way. I think that is a great way to begin. I mean, with that out of the way, you can have fun the rest of the day without worrying about having to get it done!
It was such a glorious day! I had a great time blasting my music and letting the wind carry my soul to amazing heights in the car. No worries here, no worries.
I just looked over and saw an old journal that I have and want to dispose of. Any ideas? I personally want to burn it, but I have no idea how to do that without A) Getting in trouble and B) Attracting much unwanted attention. It's one of the many things I found while cleaning that has to do with a love that died. I hung on to it solely for the purpose of wanting to have some Epic Monumental Disposal Ceremony. (I'm like that. Whenever I want to start something new, or end something, it must be a BIG DEAL)
I know I gotta get it done soon though. I think it might be a negative entity on my persona and plans and all that. OOH! Maybe I can bury it!!!! I dunno. If you have any ideas, shoot them by me. I might make a video out of the purpose! Yay! I really want it to be huge to show that I have finally moved on! I can't wait!
So how was your day? Let me know because I think you are very interesting and I want to know how you are doing.
Oh my, me! I just had a really great day. I relaxed, I cooked a fantabulous pot of chili that was enjoyed by those I love, and I got some neat gardening tips!
I started off my day by getting business out of the way. I think that is a great way to begin. I mean, with that out of the way, you can have fun the rest of the day without worrying about having to get it done!
It was such a glorious day! I had a great time blasting my music and letting the wind carry my soul to amazing heights in the car. No worries here, no worries.
I just looked over and saw an old journal that I have and want to dispose of. Any ideas? I personally want to burn it, but I have no idea how to do that without A) Getting in trouble and B) Attracting much unwanted attention. It's one of the many things I found while cleaning that has to do with a love that died. I hung on to it solely for the purpose of wanting to have some Epic Monumental Disposal Ceremony. (I'm like that. Whenever I want to start something new, or end something, it must be a BIG DEAL)
I know I gotta get it done soon though. I think it might be a negative entity on my persona and plans and all that. OOH! Maybe I can bury it!!!! I dunno. If you have any ideas, shoot them by me. I might make a video out of the purpose! Yay! I really want it to be huge to show that I have finally moved on! I can't wait!
So how was your day? Let me know because I think you are very interesting and I want to know how you are doing.
Apr 22, 2010
Check this out! (Day 53: 4/22/10)
What's the good news?
Did everyone have a fantastic Earth Day? I know I did. I had a really good day at school because everything was calm and mellow. Then I got out early, so I could go home and squeeze in a quick workout before I took a nap and then went to work.
So I wanted to share you with this AWESOME meditation that I found last night while looking for self-hypnosis and guided meditations. It is so cool, I have to admit. It is about contacting an angel called Francesca who makes dreams come true. Even if you do not believe in angels and the like, this is a VERY good visualization tool for the Law of Attraction.
So if you've got a minute, try it out. Find a comfy position, put on your headphones, relax and let the video guide you through it all.
Here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dwHGGfyaEfs
*I am not claiming to own the video and all credit should go to whoever it belongs to. I am just passing it along. If the video is your property and you do not wish it linked up here, just contact me and I will remove it.*
Anywho, have a great, night, and tomorrow! I have many things to do, so I am excited to let you know how it all turns out!
Did everyone have a fantastic Earth Day? I know I did. I had a really good day at school because everything was calm and mellow. Then I got out early, so I could go home and squeeze in a quick workout before I took a nap and then went to work.
So I wanted to share you with this AWESOME meditation that I found last night while looking for self-hypnosis and guided meditations. It is so cool, I have to admit. It is about contacting an angel called Francesca who makes dreams come true. Even if you do not believe in angels and the like, this is a VERY good visualization tool for the Law of Attraction.
So if you've got a minute, try it out. Find a comfy position, put on your headphones, relax and let the video guide you through it all.
Here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dwHGGfyaEfs
*I am not claiming to own the video and all credit should go to whoever it belongs to. I am just passing it along. If the video is your property and you do not wish it linked up here, just contact me and I will remove it.*
Anywho, have a great, night, and tomorrow! I have many things to do, so I am excited to let you know how it all turns out!
Apr 21, 2010
Stress Fest (Day 52: 4/21/10)
Hey, what's the good news?
I have to admit that yesterday was a stressful day. Paperwork piled up, I had business regarding school to take care of, and I sort of felt backed into a corner.
What do you do when you feel stress? It's definitely not beneficial to your Law of Attraction process. I could feel the negativity simmering below the surface, and I needed it to go away.
I decided to keep up my activeness and went down to my basement to do some exercise. The hour I spent learning Janet Jackson dance moves went by pretty quick, and I actually felt the stress disappearing.
Who knew that exercise is a good way to take your mind off of things??? Well I'm pretty sure a lot of people already know this...but I am excited to report that it is true! It's pretty fool-proof. If you don't want to spend time doing de-stressing techniques, or you aren't comfortable meditating, I recommend taking a walk/jog or doing some form of involved physical activity.
The fun part is that after doing that yesterday, this morning when I woke up I felt renewed and amazingly, every single issue that I was stressing about yesterday got resolved within the first 5 hours of my day. Great stuff.
This is more prove that we have already manifested anything that we could ever want. The important part is stepping out of the way to let it happen. My stressing about it all actually kept me from getting anything done, and I was not in a state of allowing. As soon as I focused on something else and started to feel good again, stuff happened. I am proud of myself for realizing my state of disallowing and making the conscious decision to not mope and instead did something about it.
I have school and work tomorrow, and I anticipate what a good day it will be! Tomorrow is Earth Day, I am hoping to give something back to my home in honor of the many things that are provided to me.
I wonder, what are you doing for Earth Day?
Are you going to plant a tree? Are you going to pick up trash? Recycle something? Whatever you do, I am sure that it will make an impact on this wonderfulness that we call home. I wish that for more than myself, Earth Day could be everyday. There doesn't have to be a designated day where we can just stop and think outside of ourselves for a few minutes. Say "Thank you" for the planet that you live on and the many opportunities that are presented to you. Even if you feel like you don't have much, it could always be a lot worse. Just the fact that you are reading this is prove enough that you are fortunate. Internet is a luxury my friend, and you are blessed to have the opportunity to use it. I know I am.
And think about how this will work for you in the long run. Remember when I talked about the importance of gratitude? If you are grateful for something, you are appreciating. When you are in appreciation, you feel good. According to the teachings of Abraham, it is impossible to feel happy and sad/mad/whathaveyou at the same time. You just can't do it. It's an either/or kind of thing. (And I think i understand. I mean we can claim that we are happy and sad at the same time, but what we really feel is sadness, we just are aware that there is something positive there. Or we are happy but aware of the possibility of unfortunate circumstances in the situation.)
So just take a moment tomorrow and be thankful for something. It can be anything. It's going to help you out.
Have a happy Earth Day tomorrow, and smile!
I have to admit that yesterday was a stressful day. Paperwork piled up, I had business regarding school to take care of, and I sort of felt backed into a corner.
What do you do when you feel stress? It's definitely not beneficial to your Law of Attraction process. I could feel the negativity simmering below the surface, and I needed it to go away.
I decided to keep up my activeness and went down to my basement to do some exercise. The hour I spent learning Janet Jackson dance moves went by pretty quick, and I actually felt the stress disappearing.
Who knew that exercise is a good way to take your mind off of things??? Well I'm pretty sure a lot of people already know this...but I am excited to report that it is true! It's pretty fool-proof. If you don't want to spend time doing de-stressing techniques, or you aren't comfortable meditating, I recommend taking a walk/jog or doing some form of involved physical activity.
The fun part is that after doing that yesterday, this morning when I woke up I felt renewed and amazingly, every single issue that I was stressing about yesterday got resolved within the first 5 hours of my day. Great stuff.
This is more prove that we have already manifested anything that we could ever want. The important part is stepping out of the way to let it happen. My stressing about it all actually kept me from getting anything done, and I was not in a state of allowing. As soon as I focused on something else and started to feel good again, stuff happened. I am proud of myself for realizing my state of disallowing and making the conscious decision to not mope and instead did something about it.
I have school and work tomorrow, and I anticipate what a good day it will be! Tomorrow is Earth Day, I am hoping to give something back to my home in honor of the many things that are provided to me.
I wonder, what are you doing for Earth Day?
Are you going to plant a tree? Are you going to pick up trash? Recycle something? Whatever you do, I am sure that it will make an impact on this wonderfulness that we call home. I wish that for more than myself, Earth Day could be everyday. There doesn't have to be a designated day where we can just stop and think outside of ourselves for a few minutes. Say "Thank you" for the planet that you live on and the many opportunities that are presented to you. Even if you feel like you don't have much, it could always be a lot worse. Just the fact that you are reading this is prove enough that you are fortunate. Internet is a luxury my friend, and you are blessed to have the opportunity to use it. I know I am.
And think about how this will work for you in the long run. Remember when I talked about the importance of gratitude? If you are grateful for something, you are appreciating. When you are in appreciation, you feel good. According to the teachings of Abraham, it is impossible to feel happy and sad/mad/whathaveyou at the same time. You just can't do it. It's an either/or kind of thing. (And I think i understand. I mean we can claim that we are happy and sad at the same time, but what we really feel is sadness, we just are aware that there is something positive there. Or we are happy but aware of the possibility of unfortunate circumstances in the situation.)
So just take a moment tomorrow and be thankful for something. It can be anything. It's going to help you out.
Have a happy Earth Day tomorrow, and smile!
Apr 19, 2010
50 dayssssss
HOLY SHIT its been 50 days!!!!!!!
ahhhh
ahhhh
i need to blog more lol
sorry busy as always.
ANYWAYYYYSSS
this weekend i went to new york city and it was alright. there was not definite plan so me and a friend just wandered the city aimlessly lol. but it was alright only a one more official time and im done with doing the artsbus haahha. anyways life is awesome and i can't stop smiling now haahha. ive started going back to the gym towards the end of the semester. im improving my weight and i can't wait to be myself again. and be healthy. i know i can do it. AHHH! off to do more work
this weekend i went to new york city and it was alright. there was not definite plan so me and a friend just wandered the city aimlessly lol. but it was alright only a one more official time and im done with doing the artsbus haahha. anyways life is awesome and i can't stop smiling now haahha. ive started going back to the gym towards the end of the semester. im improving my weight and i can't wait to be myself again. and be healthy. i know i can do it. AHHH! off to do more work
Working Out--The other one (Day 50: 4/19/10)
Huh? What's the good news?
IT'S THE 50TH DAY!!!!!! That's good news all on it's own!
So excited! I began the day with an hour long workout that gave me so much energy! A tip to those of you with an unwanted caffeine addiction: exercise in the morning! It gives you energy and it works your muscle groups so you can get healthy and fit! Apples help too.
I was so proud of my self after walking briskly for not one, but 2 miles! In between the two miles I did a few reps of push ups, sit ups, and lunges. My muscles are yelling at me right now, but I think in the morning I will be just as ready to do it again!
So congratulations for getting to day 50! I am very grateful that you have stuck with us all this time. Already 50 days in and I know that my life is changed forever. There is no doubt in my mind that I will continue this long after this 100 Days is up! I will probably take about a week's break from blogging to gather more info and refocus, and then I will be starting SEASON 2 100 Day Challenge.
I'm not to sure if Heyer will be joining me for Season 2 because, well in case you haven't noticed, he has fallen behind in his blogging. Haha, he's busy and everything. Let's just hope that he keeps himself in his state of allowance and not have to start over. I have heard of that happening before, where the person stops blogging and thus, they stop reflecting on their feelings and getting to manifest, and then they end up back where they began.
I doubt that will happen to him though. In any case, let's wish him luck on whatever busy journey he is on and hope that he can blog for us some more soon!
I'm not going to do a list of what I have manifested, because I just did that a little while ago, and I do that every 20 days. But I cannot express to you enough how exciting it is to see where I have come from and know where I'm headed. I will probably be heading to the library on Wednesday, so I can get some more boos to suggest. I have put off reading a little bit recently because of school and work. I'm going to put my foot forward and get back on that. I'm sure that you will like that :)
Happy Day 50! Let's celebrate tonight! Not just because we've dedicated ourselves to creating our own realities for 50 days, but simply just because we feel good on this very day. in this point in time. Let's celebrate 50 days of being happy!
IT'S THE 50TH DAY!!!!!! That's good news all on it's own!
So excited! I began the day with an hour long workout that gave me so much energy! A tip to those of you with an unwanted caffeine addiction: exercise in the morning! It gives you energy and it works your muscle groups so you can get healthy and fit! Apples help too.
I was so proud of my self after walking briskly for not one, but 2 miles! In between the two miles I did a few reps of push ups, sit ups, and lunges. My muscles are yelling at me right now, but I think in the morning I will be just as ready to do it again!
So congratulations for getting to day 50! I am very grateful that you have stuck with us all this time. Already 50 days in and I know that my life is changed forever. There is no doubt in my mind that I will continue this long after this 100 Days is up! I will probably take about a week's break from blogging to gather more info and refocus, and then I will be starting SEASON 2 100 Day Challenge.
I'm not to sure if Heyer will be joining me for Season 2 because, well in case you haven't noticed, he has fallen behind in his blogging. Haha, he's busy and everything. Let's just hope that he keeps himself in his state of allowance and not have to start over. I have heard of that happening before, where the person stops blogging and thus, they stop reflecting on their feelings and getting to manifest, and then they end up back where they began.
I doubt that will happen to him though. In any case, let's wish him luck on whatever busy journey he is on and hope that he can blog for us some more soon!
I'm not going to do a list of what I have manifested, because I just did that a little while ago, and I do that every 20 days. But I cannot express to you enough how exciting it is to see where I have come from and know where I'm headed. I will probably be heading to the library on Wednesday, so I can get some more boos to suggest. I have put off reading a little bit recently because of school and work. I'm going to put my foot forward and get back on that. I'm sure that you will like that :)
Happy Day 50! Let's celebrate tonight! Not just because we've dedicated ourselves to creating our own realities for 50 days, but simply just because we feel good on this very day. in this point in time. Let's celebrate 50 days of being happy!
Apr 18, 2010
Working out--Literally (Day 49: 4/19/10)
What's the good news?
Whoa! We're almost at Day 50 of this Season's 100 Day Challenge! So exciting. I guess tomorrow will be a super post!
Meanwhile, today was a great day. I woke up with a plan, and by the time the sun was down, I was in my own good grace's. I got to work on time, and safely. (Thank you) I got friendly attention from fellow employees. (Nothing sexual, just I like people to recognize me and know I'm alive is all :D) I managed to get through a harsh amount of work with a joyous smile on my face. I just loved this day. The gardening pots that I have been given arrived today, with much thanks to the original owner. I plan to get it going Tuesday when I don't have class and work. So exciting!
On days like these I tend to worry if I will have an interesting enough blog post. I mean, if all is going well, and all keeps going well, it's possible that readers will get tired reading, "Today was an awesome day--I love everything!"
I believe I should put more articles of using the Law of Attraction up. With summer coming, that's a definite possibility. I won't be running everywhere quite as much, so I will have more time to read. So I'll be getting on that!
Thanks for reading. I hope your day was as great as mine was, and if not, then let's put good vibrations into feeling great tomorrow!
Whoa! We're almost at Day 50 of this Season's 100 Day Challenge! So exciting. I guess tomorrow will be a super post!
Meanwhile, today was a great day. I woke up with a plan, and by the time the sun was down, I was in my own good grace's. I got to work on time, and safely. (Thank you) I got friendly attention from fellow employees. (Nothing sexual, just I like people to recognize me and know I'm alive is all :D) I managed to get through a harsh amount of work with a joyous smile on my face. I just loved this day. The gardening pots that I have been given arrived today, with much thanks to the original owner. I plan to get it going Tuesday when I don't have class and work. So exciting!
On days like these I tend to worry if I will have an interesting enough blog post. I mean, if all is going well, and all keeps going well, it's possible that readers will get tired reading, "Today was an awesome day--I love everything!"
I believe I should put more articles of using the Law of Attraction up. With summer coming, that's a definite possibility. I won't be running everywhere quite as much, so I will have more time to read. So I'll be getting on that!
Thanks for reading. I hope your day was as great as mine was, and if not, then let's put good vibrations into feeling great tomorrow!
Apr 17, 2010
Stop reading FML! (Day 48: 4/17/10)
What's the good news?
I don't know if I have talked about this already, but I feel the need to speak about it today because it is important. Today I overheard someone talking about a few mishaps that happened to them, and at the end of their rant came the dooming statement, FML.
If you don't know what that means, it is interwebs speak for F*** My Life. I don't really know where it started, and I don't really care. It's dangerous for people who want to create their reality.
There is a whole website dedicated to the term, where people write about crappy things that happen to them, and other people read them. I used to read FML's every single day. It's starts off something like. "I think they are funny because it's not happening to me" and then it goes to, "I had a sucktastic day so I am going to read about bad things happening to other people so that I can feel better about myself" and then sooner or later it becomes, "I know exactly what that person is going through...I feel bad for them. I feel bad for myself."
Just stop it. Even if you are just reading it now because you think it is funny. Let me tell you something, just because it isn't happening to you doesn't really mean that it CAN'T happen to you. You are letting negativity into your life just by reading it, and thus putting you in line for the kinds of stuff that you are laughing about.
You don't need it. If you need something to laugh about, find a funny joke website, or think about something that makes you laugh. I watch Family Guy when I want to laugh.
For a more productive alternative, there are websites that act as the opposite of FML. Try GMH (Gives me Hope: http://www.givesmehope.com/) or YML (Yay My life: yaymylife.com)
I admit that sometimes the stories seem unrealistic, but they do a lot more good than FML.
I remember back when I decided to stop reading FML. I actually remember that when I read it every day religiously, that was when I was going through my depression. I'm not going to say that when I stopped reading it, my life got all happy and dandy, but there was a HUGE difference in the way I did stuff. I stopped saying, "This and this happened. FML" and instead I would start saying, "WOW, This happened! Yay! I love my life!"
It's a huge difference.
If you are an avid reader of the site FML, or you catch yourself saying things like FML or my life sucks, or whatever, I challenge you to change that up. Focus on what is good to you, and celebrate it each time. Watch what happens when you switch from Ugh, to YAY!
I don't know if I have talked about this already, but I feel the need to speak about it today because it is important. Today I overheard someone talking about a few mishaps that happened to them, and at the end of their rant came the dooming statement, FML.
If you don't know what that means, it is interwebs speak for F*** My Life. I don't really know where it started, and I don't really care. It's dangerous for people who want to create their reality.
There is a whole website dedicated to the term, where people write about crappy things that happen to them, and other people read them. I used to read FML's every single day. It's starts off something like. "I think they are funny because it's not happening to me" and then it goes to, "I had a sucktastic day so I am going to read about bad things happening to other people so that I can feel better about myself" and then sooner or later it becomes, "I know exactly what that person is going through...I feel bad for them. I feel bad for myself."
Just stop it. Even if you are just reading it now because you think it is funny. Let me tell you something, just because it isn't happening to you doesn't really mean that it CAN'T happen to you. You are letting negativity into your life just by reading it, and thus putting you in line for the kinds of stuff that you are laughing about.
You don't need it. If you need something to laugh about, find a funny joke website, or think about something that makes you laugh. I watch Family Guy when I want to laugh.
For a more productive alternative, there are websites that act as the opposite of FML. Try GMH (Gives me Hope: http://www.givesmehope.com/) or YML (Yay My life: yaymylife.com)
I admit that sometimes the stories seem unrealistic, but they do a lot more good than FML.
I remember back when I decided to stop reading FML. I actually remember that when I read it every day religiously, that was when I was going through my depression. I'm not going to say that when I stopped reading it, my life got all happy and dandy, but there was a HUGE difference in the way I did stuff. I stopped saying, "This and this happened. FML" and instead I would start saying, "WOW, This happened! Yay! I love my life!"
It's a huge difference.
If you are an avid reader of the site FML, or you catch yourself saying things like FML or my life sucks, or whatever, I challenge you to change that up. Focus on what is good to you, and celebrate it each time. Watch what happens when you switch from Ugh, to YAY!
Apr 16, 2010
That wasn't so bad! (Day 47: 4/16/10)
What's the good news?
I did the physical fitness this morning! Ignoring the actual results, I feel very proud of myself for going through with it! It would have been so easy to just flip back over and say, "ehh I'll do it next week", but I took the initiative got it done.
When it came time to do the mile, things didn't go like I was used to. Before stepping up to the task, I said, I am going to finish this with energy and be proud for doing so. It happened. Back in the day when I had to do this for school, I remember feeling like I was going to die when I had to do the mile. It would take me all class period long, and I was be exhausted for the rest of the day. Today, I got the mile done in about 18 minutes, I didn't lose my breath, I felt great afterward. It was a joy. I even went out afterward and spent the rest of the day with my sis enjoying some funny funny movies and having a great time. I never felt tired. Not once.
I got a very high score on my Flexibility test. I am apparently very flexible. This isn't really all that new, since I have always been pretty flexible. I was excited to see I score 95 percentile in Flexibility.
I just need to work on the Aerobic and Strength area. I'm not even worried about the weight portion. Once again, weight is irrelevant to me. It's all about the actual health. I suppose tomorrow will be my first day of taking the initiative to get active. I'm starting that program where I exercise for at least 30 minutes a day, 5 days a week for 6 weeks. I'm excited to get started. I love the choices that I am making and I can't wait to see the results that I will ring in.
Can't I just say THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to the universe for all of this that I am able to achieve and yet, still have the capacity to hope and wish for more. It is a blessing and I enjoy every day of it.
So are you feeling it too? Strap on the tennis shoes with me and let's sing "Go the Distance" til we get there!
I did the physical fitness this morning! Ignoring the actual results, I feel very proud of myself for going through with it! It would have been so easy to just flip back over and say, "ehh I'll do it next week", but I took the initiative got it done.
When it came time to do the mile, things didn't go like I was used to. Before stepping up to the task, I said, I am going to finish this with energy and be proud for doing so. It happened. Back in the day when I had to do this for school, I remember feeling like I was going to die when I had to do the mile. It would take me all class period long, and I was be exhausted for the rest of the day. Today, I got the mile done in about 18 minutes, I didn't lose my breath, I felt great afterward. It was a joy. I even went out afterward and spent the rest of the day with my sis enjoying some funny funny movies and having a great time. I never felt tired. Not once.
I got a very high score on my Flexibility test. I am apparently very flexible. This isn't really all that new, since I have always been pretty flexible. I was excited to see I score 95 percentile in Flexibility.
I just need to work on the Aerobic and Strength area. I'm not even worried about the weight portion. Once again, weight is irrelevant to me. It's all about the actual health. I suppose tomorrow will be my first day of taking the initiative to get active. I'm starting that program where I exercise for at least 30 minutes a day, 5 days a week for 6 weeks. I'm excited to get started. I love the choices that I am making and I can't wait to see the results that I will ring in.
Can't I just say THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to the universe for all of this that I am able to achieve and yet, still have the capacity to hope and wish for more. It is a blessing and I enjoy every day of it.
So are you feeling it too? Strap on the tennis shoes with me and let's sing "Go the Distance" til we get there!
HOLY COW
Im glad that i did better on my Art History test even tho i got a C i will strive for a higher grade. the LOA does work :D
Apr 15, 2010
Thirsty Thursday (Day 46: 4/15/10)
What's the good news?
AH! So excited and nervous about tomorrow! I know that I will do well on my Physical Fitness test. I actually have to step on a scale, it'll be the first time since January. I wonder what it'll say. I don't think I am going to look though, I'll just have my sis record it. I don't feel like weight is all that important actually. What's important is the health behind the weight, right? Besides, if we were on the moon, it would be 100% different.
If I weight different on the moon, and different on Mars, and different on Neptune, I do believe then that weight is very unnecessary. But I will do it for the sake of the test ^_^. Who knows? I may have lost or gained weight since January. I still feel awesome either way.
I have much much to do tomorrow, so I am very psyched about it all! I hope to get a lot done, and at the same time feel relaxed and comfortable because it is my rest day from school and work.
Now that I think about it, this semester is actually coming to a close very soon. I have A's in all of my classes. That's just awesome. I'm not finished yet though. I've got summer classes immediately following, and then when those end, I'll be at my new school. I probably won't get a long vacation from school until next summer. I actually like that idea though. This way I can stay busy and keep my mind going. What do you think about it?
AH! So excited and nervous about tomorrow! I know that I will do well on my Physical Fitness test. I actually have to step on a scale, it'll be the first time since January. I wonder what it'll say. I don't think I am going to look though, I'll just have my sis record it. I don't feel like weight is all that important actually. What's important is the health behind the weight, right? Besides, if we were on the moon, it would be 100% different.
If I weight different on the moon, and different on Mars, and different on Neptune, I do believe then that weight is very unnecessary. But I will do it for the sake of the test ^_^. Who knows? I may have lost or gained weight since January. I still feel awesome either way.
I have much much to do tomorrow, so I am very psyched about it all! I hope to get a lot done, and at the same time feel relaxed and comfortable because it is my rest day from school and work.
Now that I think about it, this semester is actually coming to a close very soon. I have A's in all of my classes. That's just awesome. I'm not finished yet though. I've got summer classes immediately following, and then when those end, I'll be at my new school. I probably won't get a long vacation from school until next summer. I actually like that idea though. This way I can stay busy and keep my mind going. What do you think about it?
Apr 14, 2010
Full Speed Ahead (Day 45: 4/14/10)
Hey peoples, what's the good news?
Not that much to say today! Had too much fun getting back to feeling comfortable and happy. I didn't do very much, other than take a sudden interest in cooking chili and watching a new tv show. I feel a lot better than I did the other day. I will be getting the pots for my herbal container garden soon, and I plan on helping my mother do yard work on possibly Friday. I will be very active this weekend, which is exactly what I had in mind.
I want to get so active the summer. I feel happy when I think about exercising and am inspired to get moving! I'm not going to push myself though, I find that it will be better for me to find things I enjoy rather than strapping up the tennis's and hitting the track. It'll be fun. It will be much funner if I can get people to do it with me. My sis will probably be on board, and maybe I can convince other friends to join in.
I might do some vids on it, who knows? I am having lots of fun with this!
Not that much to say today! Had too much fun getting back to feeling comfortable and happy. I didn't do very much, other than take a sudden interest in cooking chili and watching a new tv show. I feel a lot better than I did the other day. I will be getting the pots for my herbal container garden soon, and I plan on helping my mother do yard work on possibly Friday. I will be very active this weekend, which is exactly what I had in mind.
I want to get so active the summer. I feel happy when I think about exercising and am inspired to get moving! I'm not going to push myself though, I find that it will be better for me to find things I enjoy rather than strapping up the tennis's and hitting the track. It'll be fun. It will be much funner if I can get people to do it with me. My sis will probably be on board, and maybe I can convince other friends to join in.
I might do some vids on it, who knows? I am having lots of fun with this!
Apr 13, 2010
What to Do? (Day 44: 4/13/10)
What's the good news?
So today I was approached by a friend of mine on a tough issue. I won't share his personal issues with, but I can say that he is in a state of sadness.
I don't really have much to say today because my mind has been wrapped around what I could tell him to help him feel better. I know that we cannot heal or save others, but I do know that when my friends come to me, I try my best to help them realize the road toward happiness, whether they take it or not is completely up to them.
I am very unsure of what to tell him though. I know that sadness is a lot harder to deal with than anger. I just wish I could tell him to be angry, and then work his way up through emotions from there. Anger is easier than sadness. When you are angry you feel like you blame others, she feel like you could keep the actual hurt from being in your heart. Versus feeling sad, sadness is like a feeling of lost hope. When you are sad, you feel you have lost something. Losing something (sadness) is a different feeling altogether than having something taken from you (anger). It's easier to be angry because you can a lot faster regain that feeling of hope. You just have to have the right things in place for you.
But he can't be mad, only sad. My heart goes out to him. Sadness can shake a person. It can turn into depression.
I remember for me, when I found out that my boyfriend of almost 3 years had moved on and met someone and in a nutshell, forgot I existed. I was so sad. I cried about it and fretted for days. I started to think that something was wrong with me, I thought that I wasn't good enough. I mean, hey, he didn't even view me worthy enough of breaking up with me, something must have been wrong with me. That kind of thinking, mixed into an environment that wasn't exactly healthy, and feelings of loneliness actually spiraled me into about a half year of depression. Tough times. But you know what? After depression cam anger. I blamed him, I blamed the other girl, eventually I blamed myself. I blamed so many people for such a failed relationship.
Feeling angry about it was the best thing I could have done for myself. Why? Because from there I felt acceptance of what happened. Accepting it all allowed me to realize the truth of it all. The truth that he wasn't for me, that it wasn't a particularly healthy relationship, that I could, and WOULD, pick myself up and move on. I could feel the hope again. Then from there, I learned to let go.
So I just really want him to know that no matter where you are in life, there is always another step up. Then from there, there is another one. It doesn't stop. Once you get to happy, you just keep getting better and better.
No matter what, we are always in a state of now. This I have learned from the Abraham Hicks books. Right now, he probably does not feel to good. But I bet if he can find just one thing to feel good about, that will spawn a good feeling for the next moment of life. Abraham mentions that for something to affect your manifestations, you need only focus upon it for 17 seconds. So maybe I should tell him that.
In the end, I just want him to not be sad. To be happy. But the truth is that I can't make that happen for him. Only he can. The only person that I answer to is myself. The hard thing is feeling sympathy for him without empathizing with him. I am working on this. I have to find that balance to where I can feel comfortable helping him out, without feeling his emotions.
Wish me luck.
So today I was approached by a friend of mine on a tough issue. I won't share his personal issues with, but I can say that he is in a state of sadness.
I don't really have much to say today because my mind has been wrapped around what I could tell him to help him feel better. I know that we cannot heal or save others, but I do know that when my friends come to me, I try my best to help them realize the road toward happiness, whether they take it or not is completely up to them.
I am very unsure of what to tell him though. I know that sadness is a lot harder to deal with than anger. I just wish I could tell him to be angry, and then work his way up through emotions from there. Anger is easier than sadness. When you are angry you feel like you blame others, she feel like you could keep the actual hurt from being in your heart. Versus feeling sad, sadness is like a feeling of lost hope. When you are sad, you feel you have lost something. Losing something (sadness) is a different feeling altogether than having something taken from you (anger). It's easier to be angry because you can a lot faster regain that feeling of hope. You just have to have the right things in place for you.
But he can't be mad, only sad. My heart goes out to him. Sadness can shake a person. It can turn into depression.
I remember for me, when I found out that my boyfriend of almost 3 years had moved on and met someone and in a nutshell, forgot I existed. I was so sad. I cried about it and fretted for days. I started to think that something was wrong with me, I thought that I wasn't good enough. I mean, hey, he didn't even view me worthy enough of breaking up with me, something must have been wrong with me. That kind of thinking, mixed into an environment that wasn't exactly healthy, and feelings of loneliness actually spiraled me into about a half year of depression. Tough times. But you know what? After depression cam anger. I blamed him, I blamed the other girl, eventually I blamed myself. I blamed so many people for such a failed relationship.
Feeling angry about it was the best thing I could have done for myself. Why? Because from there I felt acceptance of what happened. Accepting it all allowed me to realize the truth of it all. The truth that he wasn't for me, that it wasn't a particularly healthy relationship, that I could, and WOULD, pick myself up and move on. I could feel the hope again. Then from there, I learned to let go.
So I just really want him to know that no matter where you are in life, there is always another step up. Then from there, there is another one. It doesn't stop. Once you get to happy, you just keep getting better and better.
No matter what, we are always in a state of now. This I have learned from the Abraham Hicks books. Right now, he probably does not feel to good. But I bet if he can find just one thing to feel good about, that will spawn a good feeling for the next moment of life. Abraham mentions that for something to affect your manifestations, you need only focus upon it for 17 seconds. So maybe I should tell him that.
In the end, I just want him to not be sad. To be happy. But the truth is that I can't make that happen for him. Only he can. The only person that I answer to is myself. The hard thing is feeling sympathy for him without empathizing with him. I am working on this. I have to find that balance to where I can feel comfortable helping him out, without feeling his emotions.
Wish me luck.
Apr 12, 2010
That's better (Day 43: 4/12/10)
What's the good news?
Since last night's post, I have been feeling amazing. I have renew the faith that I have in myself, and most importantly, I'm back to feeling happy. I jammed in my car today and had a great day at work and school. I got a good grade on a paper, and I am just so excited about feeling great again.
My favorite male Korean singer put out a new album recently and I get to drool over his awesomeness once again. I haven't been listening to Kpop much lately, so it is fun to look back and see what they've been putting out since I kind of shifted away.
My plants are growing! Pretty soon I'm going to be putting them outside. I would love to show you pictures. Hmm, now I think that's all that I had to share with you today. It's short, I know, but today was another one of those short, fun, blissful days where even the littlest of things bring about joy and laughter.
I feel so blessed to have days like these. I anticipate more.
Oh! A quick shout out to my dad! Congratulations on your retirement! You've worked so hard!
Since last night's post, I have been feeling amazing. I have renew the faith that I have in myself, and most importantly, I'm back to feeling happy. I jammed in my car today and had a great day at work and school. I got a good grade on a paper, and I am just so excited about feeling great again.
My favorite male Korean singer put out a new album recently and I get to drool over his awesomeness once again. I haven't been listening to Kpop much lately, so it is fun to look back and see what they've been putting out since I kind of shifted away.
My plants are growing! Pretty soon I'm going to be putting them outside. I would love to show you pictures. Hmm, now I think that's all that I had to share with you today. It's short, I know, but today was another one of those short, fun, blissful days where even the littlest of things bring about joy and laughter.
I feel so blessed to have days like these. I anticipate more.
Oh! A quick shout out to my dad! Congratulations on your retirement! You've worked so hard!
Apr 11, 2010
Retrospect and this day that won't end (Day 42: 4/11/10)
What's the good news?
Hi all, chatting with you live again from my bedroom. I just want to say, here's how you know I am authentic here. I am not offering you the world of knowledge through my know-all and be-all step by step procedure here. I am sharing with you what I am experiencing these 100 days, hoping that it might inspire you to give it a go. (Because it works, and you can have it work in your favor) It takes time. I realized that today as I went through a day full of negativity, resulting in feeling very sad.
It goes all back to yesterday. If you didn't read my previous post, I went out clubbing and, yes I had a good time. But I felt like the confidence I had been building all this time just left me right when I needed it. I felt the old, shy me take over, and I didn't let myself have the amount of fun I could have. These thoughts kept plaguing me all day and I felt the spiral. Oh, you nasty spiral, you. I didn't want to go to work, and then I ended up getting stuck in abominable traffic, and while in traffic I was being made fun of by a bunch of misfits in a nice looking car. Then I got to work and many many people were there, and there was just so much to do. One thing, after the next, and all I had to do was stop focusing on how embarrassed I felt about yesterday. I couldn't let it go, and it showed in a big way.
I'm not going to say that I wish I could go back to last night and do it all again, because I do not. I want to be right where I am, right now. I recognize the problem and I am determined to fix it, and after a pep talk from a very positive influence in my life, a mentor if you will, I realized something.
That confidence never left me. Sure I work so hard to build it, and it wasn't at a level that I may have expected it to be, but thinking back, would I have even GONE to the club in the first place a year ago? No. Would I have gone 42 days ago? Probably not. If I had, would I have even set foot on that dance floor? Absolutely not. I know exactly what I would have done. I would have jokingly done goofy moves once or twice before finding a nice spot on the wall to make best friends with.
I should be proud of myself--I AM proud of myself for what I did yesterday/this morning. (haha) This is once of those "slow cooker" moments that Shay Carl talks about in vlogs. Time and pressure. That's all I need to get where I'm headed with this. I can go back and be myself, let loose and dance the night away without a care in the world of who's watching me! I just need to build more confidence onto the stockpile of confidence that I already have going for me.
So there's a new goal for myself. I choose to turn the how and the when over to the universe. I don't have a clue when and how I will gain the confidence to go back out there and show myself what I've got, but it doesn't matter. I already have it, see? It's mine for the taking and now all I need to do is sit back and allow it to happen. Meaning I have to believe it is mine. So I will, so I do.
As for this less than perfect day I've had, well it made me realize how much more I need to delve into Releasing strategies. If I had the proper releasing technique today, this morning, I probably would have had a much better day. So I am off to find out more about releasing techniques. I even thought about making up some of my own while at work today. It gave me an idea for a HUGE project, that will take lots of time, help, and possibly money? I will wait and see how that unfolds. You'll be first to know what's going to happen with it, promise.
On that note, I feel so much better now. Despite the icky day, despite the strands of feeling embarrassed, despite whatever. First, that pep talk really cheered me up, and blogging to you is the cherry on top. I feel renewed and honored to share all of this with whoever may read it. I stopped living in whatever happened yesterday, and instead I choose to be happy right now. Blogging is officially my happy place!
Thanks for reading!
I am off to meditate to refocus on what I'm heading for!
Hi all, chatting with you live again from my bedroom. I just want to say, here's how you know I am authentic here. I am not offering you the world of knowledge through my know-all and be-all step by step procedure here. I am sharing with you what I am experiencing these 100 days, hoping that it might inspire you to give it a go. (Because it works, and you can have it work in your favor) It takes time. I realized that today as I went through a day full of negativity, resulting in feeling very sad.
It goes all back to yesterday. If you didn't read my previous post, I went out clubbing and, yes I had a good time. But I felt like the confidence I had been building all this time just left me right when I needed it. I felt the old, shy me take over, and I didn't let myself have the amount of fun I could have. These thoughts kept plaguing me all day and I felt the spiral. Oh, you nasty spiral, you. I didn't want to go to work, and then I ended up getting stuck in abominable traffic, and while in traffic I was being made fun of by a bunch of misfits in a nice looking car. Then I got to work and many many people were there, and there was just so much to do. One thing, after the next, and all I had to do was stop focusing on how embarrassed I felt about yesterday. I couldn't let it go, and it showed in a big way.
I'm not going to say that I wish I could go back to last night and do it all again, because I do not. I want to be right where I am, right now. I recognize the problem and I am determined to fix it, and after a pep talk from a very positive influence in my life, a mentor if you will, I realized something.
That confidence never left me. Sure I work so hard to build it, and it wasn't at a level that I may have expected it to be, but thinking back, would I have even GONE to the club in the first place a year ago? No. Would I have gone 42 days ago? Probably not. If I had, would I have even set foot on that dance floor? Absolutely not. I know exactly what I would have done. I would have jokingly done goofy moves once or twice before finding a nice spot on the wall to make best friends with.
I should be proud of myself--I AM proud of myself for what I did yesterday/this morning. (haha) This is once of those "slow cooker" moments that Shay Carl talks about in vlogs. Time and pressure. That's all I need to get where I'm headed with this. I can go back and be myself, let loose and dance the night away without a care in the world of who's watching me! I just need to build more confidence onto the stockpile of confidence that I already have going for me.
So there's a new goal for myself. I choose to turn the how and the when over to the universe. I don't have a clue when and how I will gain the confidence to go back out there and show myself what I've got, but it doesn't matter. I already have it, see? It's mine for the taking and now all I need to do is sit back and allow it to happen. Meaning I have to believe it is mine. So I will, so I do.
As for this less than perfect day I've had, well it made me realize how much more I need to delve into Releasing strategies. If I had the proper releasing technique today, this morning, I probably would have had a much better day. So I am off to find out more about releasing techniques. I even thought about making up some of my own while at work today. It gave me an idea for a HUGE project, that will take lots of time, help, and possibly money? I will wait and see how that unfolds. You'll be first to know what's going to happen with it, promise.
On that note, I feel so much better now. Despite the icky day, despite the strands of feeling embarrassed, despite whatever. First, that pep talk really cheered me up, and blogging to you is the cherry on top. I feel renewed and honored to share all of this with whoever may read it. I stopped living in whatever happened yesterday, and instead I choose to be happy right now. Blogging is officially my happy place!
Thanks for reading!
I am off to meditate to refocus on what I'm heading for!
I DROPPED THE BALL! (Day 41: 4/10/10)
***This was typed at 4 in the morning, so it might be a little loopy***
Hey everyone.
This is coming late, I know, but better late than never right? I shall explain. My pal asked me to go clubbing with him! I have never gone clubbing before, so that was awesome. We did go, and I danced!
I dropped the ball.
I wasn't very confident out there. I kept beating myself up about it on the ride home. On my way out of the car my friend said to me, "Next time dance better." and I think that was when I wanted to cry. I AM a great dancer, I love dancing. But apparently I did not dance well?
I think this is where the blog gets real, if you haven't thought it real yet. Here comes the struggle. Rome wasn't built in a day; this creating your own reality takes some time to get used to. I just need to work at it.
I want to go back. I want to prove to myself that I can do it. And I CAN!
Hey everyone.
This is coming late, I know, but better late than never right? I shall explain. My pal asked me to go clubbing with him! I have never gone clubbing before, so that was awesome. We did go, and I danced!
I dropped the ball.
I wasn't very confident out there. I kept beating myself up about it on the ride home. On my way out of the car my friend said to me, "Next time dance better." and I think that was when I wanted to cry. I AM a great dancer, I love dancing. But apparently I did not dance well?
I think this is where the blog gets real, if you haven't thought it real yet. Here comes the struggle. Rome wasn't built in a day; this creating your own reality takes some time to get used to. I just need to work at it.
I want to go back. I want to prove to myself that I can do it. And I CAN!
Apr 10, 2010
40 days and 40 nights. no no no not going without sex
Today i knew i was going to find my wallet. i had previous lost it over the week. I knew that i wasnt going to find it until now. and so thats what happened lol
Its been 40 awesome days of doing this challenge. sorry for not blogging lol i've been so busy with tests and projects and work for other stuff that i have no time for myself really haha. But i have been sick of one thing. POLLEN
I
FUCKING
FUCKING
HATE
IT
lol. it was bad this week. ugh lol
overall good progress this week
Apr 9, 2010
Friday (Day 40: 4/9/10)
What's the good news?
Hi all. Today was just a fun day that I spent hanging around with my sister. We had a good time joking around and walking in the mall. Saw my pal Heyer today as well.
Seeing as how it is DAY 40, I will go ahead and reflect on all of the manifestations that have transpired since Day 20.
1)Enjoy being physically active.
2)Enjoy healthy foods.
3)Gain and love a unique, fun, flirty fashion sense.
4)Have the ability to afford all the material wants, yet still be able to save for the future.
5)Make friends who are supportive, positive, like-minded, and honest.
6)Proudly receive all A's in all of my classes.
For Number 1:
I have been getting a little more active. I take walks with my sister around town on some Fridays, and I have a new interest in the Presidential Fitness program. I am willing to give it a go, so hopefully I can get a buddy to join me. If not, I am still going to try. More to come soon!
For number 2:
Good stuff! While my like for less-than-healthy foods has not yet completely vanished, I have greatly noticed my boredom with them. I find myself craving foods that are very different from the usual stuff that I eat. Which is a good thing. I want more vegetables, and I always always want to drink water as opposed to juice or soda. I actually feel more thirsty than hungry most days. I haven't weighed myself in a very long time. I don't really plan to, I imagine that whatever weight I am right now is the perfect one.
For number 3:
I have been way more conscious about the clothes I wear now. Not much to say here. I can picture myself in many different cute outfits. A feel cute and confident when I go out! It's great!
For number 4:
My co-worker officially quit last week. I have been working more hours on the weekends. Also, my other co-worker has informed me that I will soon be getting a raise! So exciting! I am thinking about selling some of my stuff that I want to get rid of from my spring cleaning. My textbooks will definitely be sold after thus semester. I am so happy now that I have been able to let go of objects I no longer need. I will be selling them, thus getting some money back. Things are looking up! Perhaps soon I will be able to afford my own place!
For number 5:
I have been speaking to a lot of my friends that I thought forgot about me a long time ago! Old acquaintances have been showing up left and right. Also, I have been in contact with some high school friends. I have been talking to a lot more people in school, and I feel comfortable when I am social. Going along with my social confidence, when I get called on for class discussion, I in no way feel completely distraught and embarrassed. I feel confident, and enjoy discussing with my teachers and classmates. I feel intelligent and proud.
For number 6:
Most exciting of all! I KNOW I have an A in ALL of my classes and it WILL stay that way! My classes are so easy for me, and I enjoy them. I feel confident about each test that I take. I feel happy and excited to get the tests back and see the high scores written across the top!
It is only Day 40 of 100 days that I am exactly where I wanted to be when I started this! I will probably be expanding on all of my goals because I know everything is going great and it won't be much longer until I am completely satisfied. I'll have leftover days. Now I REALLY want to have fun with it.
I am really rooting for a fun new relationship with a guy my age soon. There have been hints at it recently. I've been getting a lot of compliments for older men, but I am putting my focus on guys my age now. I would like to go out and have fun, do young people stuff like going to amusement parks and fairs for dates, and going out to the movies. Sounds like lots of fun!
We'll see! Hope on this Day 40, you are in total Manifestation Mode as I am! Let us know where you are!!
Hi all. Today was just a fun day that I spent hanging around with my sister. We had a good time joking around and walking in the mall. Saw my pal Heyer today as well.
Seeing as how it is DAY 40, I will go ahead and reflect on all of the manifestations that have transpired since Day 20.
1)Enjoy being physically active.
2)Enjoy healthy foods.
3)Gain and love a unique, fun, flirty fashion sense.
4)Have the ability to afford all the material wants, yet still be able to save for the future.
5)Make friends who are supportive, positive, like-minded, and honest.
6)Proudly receive all A's in all of my classes.
For Number 1:
I have been getting a little more active. I take walks with my sister around town on some Fridays, and I have a new interest in the Presidential Fitness program. I am willing to give it a go, so hopefully I can get a buddy to join me. If not, I am still going to try. More to come soon!
For number 2:
Good stuff! While my like for less-than-healthy foods has not yet completely vanished, I have greatly noticed my boredom with them. I find myself craving foods that are very different from the usual stuff that I eat. Which is a good thing. I want more vegetables, and I always always want to drink water as opposed to juice or soda. I actually feel more thirsty than hungry most days. I haven't weighed myself in a very long time. I don't really plan to, I imagine that whatever weight I am right now is the perfect one.
For number 3:
I have been way more conscious about the clothes I wear now. Not much to say here. I can picture myself in many different cute outfits. A feel cute and confident when I go out! It's great!
For number 4:
My co-worker officially quit last week. I have been working more hours on the weekends. Also, my other co-worker has informed me that I will soon be getting a raise! So exciting! I am thinking about selling some of my stuff that I want to get rid of from my spring cleaning. My textbooks will definitely be sold after thus semester. I am so happy now that I have been able to let go of objects I no longer need. I will be selling them, thus getting some money back. Things are looking up! Perhaps soon I will be able to afford my own place!
For number 5:
I have been speaking to a lot of my friends that I thought forgot about me a long time ago! Old acquaintances have been showing up left and right. Also, I have been in contact with some high school friends. I have been talking to a lot more people in school, and I feel comfortable when I am social. Going along with my social confidence, when I get called on for class discussion, I in no way feel completely distraught and embarrassed. I feel confident, and enjoy discussing with my teachers and classmates. I feel intelligent and proud.
For number 6:
Most exciting of all! I KNOW I have an A in ALL of my classes and it WILL stay that way! My classes are so easy for me, and I enjoy them. I feel confident about each test that I take. I feel happy and excited to get the tests back and see the high scores written across the top!
It is only Day 40 of 100 days that I am exactly where I wanted to be when I started this! I will probably be expanding on all of my goals because I know everything is going great and it won't be much longer until I am completely satisfied. I'll have leftover days. Now I REALLY want to have fun with it.
I am really rooting for a fun new relationship with a guy my age soon. There have been hints at it recently. I've been getting a lot of compliments for older men, but I am putting my focus on guys my age now. I would like to go out and have fun, do young people stuff like going to amusement parks and fairs for dates, and going out to the movies. Sounds like lots of fun!
We'll see! Hope on this Day 40, you are in total Manifestation Mode as I am! Let us know where you are!!
Apr 8, 2010
Good Grades! (Day 39: 4/8.10)
That was weird, it posted by itself without the entry. Now let's just try that again...
What's the good news?
I hope you had a splendid day, as I did! My good news is that I aced my art history test, just as I envisioned it. The fun and dangerous part is that I really did not study for it, and I REALLY did not know the answers! But as I sat down to take it, I said to myself, "This is MY A. This paper is my A and I will have the right answers to get the A"
I only missed four questions out of maybe 40? And I gained points back for an extra credit question. It's so very exciting!
What's the good news?
I hope you had a splendid day, as I did! My good news is that I aced my art history test, just as I envisioned it. The fun and dangerous part is that I really did not study for it, and I REALLY did not know the answers! But as I sat down to take it, I said to myself, "This is MY A. This paper is my A and I will have the right answers to get the A"
I only missed four questions out of maybe 40? And I gained points back for an extra credit question. It's so very exciting!
Apr 7, 2010
Health stuff! (Day 38: 4/7/10)
What's the good news?
So I was thinking today about how healthy I would like to become. You've seen on my vision board how I want to enjoy eating food that is good for me and lead an active and fun life style.
So I looked around for a believable and reasonable starting place and came to the President's Physical Fitness website. I found some good stuff on there that I am willing to give a try, but that's not really what I am going to talk about today. Perhaps tomorrow?
While looking around there, I came across health warnings and realized something. I have not been to the doctor in a long, long time! Like a serious long time. Sort of, kind of like when you leave high school, your parents don't really pay attention to whether you go or not, and you don't really care as long as there's nothing wrong with you.
Also, I have grown an almost certain dislike of all medical stuffs as of recently, mostly because I have somewhat inherited my grandfather's hypochondria, and whenever I DID go to the doctor, they would say that there's nothing wrong with me. So I have taken to doing home remedies that have more effects. (I'm not advocating anything here, read on!)
But I do realize the importance of getting at least a yearly check up. So I am not taking the initiative to go see a doctor (only to have him tell me I am in tip top shape! which for once in my life I will appreciate!). This will be my first step into focusing in on growing love and appreciation for my body. Well sort of. I've already taken about two years gaining confidence and appreciation about the way I look, and realizing just how beautiful I am. But now it is time to start taking better care of it.
So let's do this! I'm trying to get Heyer to do a physical fitness test with me so we know where we stand before we start getting a move on. Literally. Ha!
If you're interested in joining us, feel free to let us know and we will work out a support system!
On that note, I am going to leave you with a thought. How do you feel about your body? How long did it take you to work up that current perception? What factors lead to you thinking this?
I think that it is very important for each and everyone of us (,ale or female) to take time to look in a mirror and say, "what a beautiful fantastic me I am." take time to find the beautiful things about you. If you do that, you will appreciate yourself more. Then if you do that, you will want to take a lot better care of yourself. Then you will work at it, and soon realize that you have the body that you have always wanted and hoped for.
Do you agree?
So I was thinking today about how healthy I would like to become. You've seen on my vision board how I want to enjoy eating food that is good for me and lead an active and fun life style.
So I looked around for a believable and reasonable starting place and came to the President's Physical Fitness website. I found some good stuff on there that I am willing to give a try, but that's not really what I am going to talk about today. Perhaps tomorrow?
While looking around there, I came across health warnings and realized something. I have not been to the doctor in a long, long time! Like a serious long time. Sort of, kind of like when you leave high school, your parents don't really pay attention to whether you go or not, and you don't really care as long as there's nothing wrong with you.
Also, I have grown an almost certain dislike of all medical stuffs as of recently, mostly because I have somewhat inherited my grandfather's hypochondria, and whenever I DID go to the doctor, they would say that there's nothing wrong with me. So I have taken to doing home remedies that have more effects. (I'm not advocating anything here, read on!)
But I do realize the importance of getting at least a yearly check up. So I am not taking the initiative to go see a doctor (only to have him tell me I am in tip top shape! which for once in my life I will appreciate!). This will be my first step into focusing in on growing love and appreciation for my body. Well sort of. I've already taken about two years gaining confidence and appreciation about the way I look, and realizing just how beautiful I am. But now it is time to start taking better care of it.
So let's do this! I'm trying to get Heyer to do a physical fitness test with me so we know where we stand before we start getting a move on. Literally. Ha!
If you're interested in joining us, feel free to let us know and we will work out a support system!
On that note, I am going to leave you with a thought. How do you feel about your body? How long did it take you to work up that current perception? What factors lead to you thinking this?
I think that it is very important for each and everyone of us (,ale or female) to take time to look in a mirror and say, "what a beautiful fantastic me I am." take time to find the beautiful things about you. If you do that, you will appreciate yourself more. Then if you do that, you will want to take a lot better care of yourself. Then you will work at it, and soon realize that you have the body that you have always wanted and hoped for.
Do you agree?
Apr 6, 2010
Memories! (Day 37: 4/6/10)
What's the good news?
Boy am I sleepy. Woke up early so that I could Ace another Art test. (I know I did ^_^) I had a pretty good day at school today, and it is no surprise that the Earth has blessed us with such another beautiful day! I could used to this!
So I have memories today. I would love to share with you and explain what's going through my head on this amazing April evening!
Fair warning for those of you who aren't fans of romance. I am about to get real nostalgic and possibly mushy. I can't help it, I'm a girl! Haha! Anywho, yeah.
So I was relaxing in the library this morning, and a fellow walked by and made me think of this kid I had a crush on when I was younger. I remember it was one of those huge crushes you get when you were in elementary school when you are 100% sure that that boy is going to marry you, and you'll live happily ever after...just as soon as he realizes that girls are not icky.
Interesting subject, because I really haven't though about any of those little boys since I had my high school relationship that lasted almost 3 years. It's amazing how I just completely forgot about this guy, even though I liked him so much!
I met him in the 4th grade, I think. He had a lot of friends, but he wasn't a part of the escalating "popular crowd". I thought he was a cutey, and he picked on me, so I was sure he liked me too. Then I had him in homeroom again when I was in the 8th grade. There he was a little more withdrawn, but he still kind of picked on me. I didn't really have such a crush on him by that point, but there was always something special about him.
Have you ever met a person that you knew absolutely nothing about them, but at the same time, you felt like you knew their soul? Like you knew how the clockwork inside of them turned. I felt like that. I felt like even though we weren't really friends or anything, I felt like we were connected in some way. I didn't realize it then, but I can't deny it now. I felt so close to that boy, and didn't know one thing about him other than his name!
Realizing this, I decided to look his name up on facebook, you know, just to see if he was still around. You know, because most people you can't view their info unless you're friends with them. But amazingly, his was not the case. (I'm shocked he even HAS one.) I was reading his profile, and I felt that connection to him again, it was so amazing. I didn't add him, I don't feel like I need to, we don't really know each other, I mean we talked, we were acquaintances, but after middle school I never heard about him again. (And when I talk about this 'connection' with him, do not think I am stalking him or something. It's not that kind of connection. Perhaps I knew him in a past life or something. I think so.)
So the most awesome part of all this was his shout out to his girlfriend. He described her in such a cool way. The more I read, the bigger my grin got, and this to you I swear. I am pretty sure here that I am a changed woman! I mean, regardless of whether I still currently like someone or not, in the past if I caught wind of them have a happy relationship, I SWEAR I would go ape doo-doo. I would be so jealous. Either jealous because I still liked the guy, or jealous because he moved on and was happy without me. Now I just feel really happy for the other person. As with the case with this guy, I felt so unbelievably excited to read about how happy he is!
In short, letting go of bitterness is one of the best decisions I have ever made in my entire life.
You know, I have affirmed and decided to open myself to love every day, and by remembering this, I think I am doing just that. It took me such a long time to get over the bitterness I felt in my heart from my most recent relationship (and also my first serious relationship). Letting this guy control my life (whether either of us were aware he did or not) was completely eating me up inside.
I feel so absolutely blessed to have found a way to break free from all that. I haven't just forgiven him and myself, but now I feel so thankful for the many things I got from that relationship. I feel happy for him that he has love in his life. In doing so, I am inviting love into my own life. It feels great.
I really wish that I could meet that guy again. He's far away, so it is unlikely. But If I had the chance to speak face to face with him right now, I would hug him. I would tell him thank you, over and over again for helping me realize what I have and what I'm working myself toward. Memories of him, and catching up on him currently, has made me realize just how far I have come.
And it keeps getting better.
Boy am I sleepy. Woke up early so that I could Ace another Art test. (I know I did ^_^) I had a pretty good day at school today, and it is no surprise that the Earth has blessed us with such another beautiful day! I could used to this!
So I have memories today. I would love to share with you and explain what's going through my head on this amazing April evening!
Fair warning for those of you who aren't fans of romance. I am about to get real nostalgic and possibly mushy. I can't help it, I'm a girl! Haha! Anywho, yeah.
So I was relaxing in the library this morning, and a fellow walked by and made me think of this kid I had a crush on when I was younger. I remember it was one of those huge crushes you get when you were in elementary school when you are 100% sure that that boy is going to marry you, and you'll live happily ever after...just as soon as he realizes that girls are not icky.
Interesting subject, because I really haven't though about any of those little boys since I had my high school relationship that lasted almost 3 years. It's amazing how I just completely forgot about this guy, even though I liked him so much!
I met him in the 4th grade, I think. He had a lot of friends, but he wasn't a part of the escalating "popular crowd". I thought he was a cutey, and he picked on me, so I was sure he liked me too. Then I had him in homeroom again when I was in the 8th grade. There he was a little more withdrawn, but he still kind of picked on me. I didn't really have such a crush on him by that point, but there was always something special about him.
Have you ever met a person that you knew absolutely nothing about them, but at the same time, you felt like you knew their soul? Like you knew how the clockwork inside of them turned. I felt like that. I felt like even though we weren't really friends or anything, I felt like we were connected in some way. I didn't realize it then, but I can't deny it now. I felt so close to that boy, and didn't know one thing about him other than his name!
Realizing this, I decided to look his name up on facebook, you know, just to see if he was still around. You know, because most people you can't view their info unless you're friends with them. But amazingly, his was not the case. (I'm shocked he even HAS one.) I was reading his profile, and I felt that connection to him again, it was so amazing. I didn't add him, I don't feel like I need to, we don't really know each other, I mean we talked, we were acquaintances, but after middle school I never heard about him again. (And when I talk about this 'connection' with him, do not think I am stalking him or something. It's not that kind of connection. Perhaps I knew him in a past life or something. I think so.)
So the most awesome part of all this was his shout out to his girlfriend. He described her in such a cool way. The more I read, the bigger my grin got, and this to you I swear. I am pretty sure here that I am a changed woman! I mean, regardless of whether I still currently like someone or not, in the past if I caught wind of them have a happy relationship, I SWEAR I would go ape doo-doo. I would be so jealous. Either jealous because I still liked the guy, or jealous because he moved on and was happy without me. Now I just feel really happy for the other person. As with the case with this guy, I felt so unbelievably excited to read about how happy he is!
In short, letting go of bitterness is one of the best decisions I have ever made in my entire life.
You know, I have affirmed and decided to open myself to love every day, and by remembering this, I think I am doing just that. It took me such a long time to get over the bitterness I felt in my heart from my most recent relationship (and also my first serious relationship). Letting this guy control my life (whether either of us were aware he did or not) was completely eating me up inside.
I feel so absolutely blessed to have found a way to break free from all that. I haven't just forgiven him and myself, but now I feel so thankful for the many things I got from that relationship. I feel happy for him that he has love in his life. In doing so, I am inviting love into my own life. It feels great.
I really wish that I could meet that guy again. He's far away, so it is unlikely. But If I had the chance to speak face to face with him right now, I would hug him. I would tell him thank you, over and over again for helping me realize what I have and what I'm working myself toward. Memories of him, and catching up on him currently, has made me realize just how far I have come.
And it keeps getting better.
Apr 5, 2010
Can't stress it ENOUGH! (Day 36: 4/5/10)
What's the good news?!
Okay, so wow....wow...WOW! What an amazing day this was! After not researching last night, I woke up with a paper in my head and it only took me an hour to let those words flow onto paper. I mean it. I was so sure I'd wake up and write that paper, stress-free. It happened.
I got yet another A on my Science Test. It's so exciting! I'm probably not going to have to take the Final! We talked about genetics today and I found the information came to me so easily. It's the same information that I have never understood before, but now I do. Can't beat that feeling when you suddenly get something you didn't get before!
The traffic today was horrendous. I did find myself slipping into slight frustration, but every time I caught it, and turned my attention elsewhere, the traffic eased up! At first I didn't think I would get to work on time, but I did.
I guess the important thing I have to remind you is to not just stay positive about things, but to feel good now! You can be positive all you want, but if you aren't feeling it, if you aren't feeling good, it's not doing anything for you.
I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH! STOP trying to make everything happen right now and focus in on how you feel! If you do not feel good, find a way to do so!
You see through my results what happens when you do.
Anywho, tomorrow I am charged with 2 tests and a quiz, so I must study. Though I know that I will ace them all, no stress. Good night!
Okay, so wow....wow...WOW! What an amazing day this was! After not researching last night, I woke up with a paper in my head and it only took me an hour to let those words flow onto paper. I mean it. I was so sure I'd wake up and write that paper, stress-free. It happened.
I got yet another A on my Science Test. It's so exciting! I'm probably not going to have to take the Final! We talked about genetics today and I found the information came to me so easily. It's the same information that I have never understood before, but now I do. Can't beat that feeling when you suddenly get something you didn't get before!
The traffic today was horrendous. I did find myself slipping into slight frustration, but every time I caught it, and turned my attention elsewhere, the traffic eased up! At first I didn't think I would get to work on time, but I did.
I guess the important thing I have to remind you is to not just stay positive about things, but to feel good now! You can be positive all you want, but if you aren't feeling it, if you aren't feeling good, it's not doing anything for you.
I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH! STOP trying to make everything happen right now and focus in on how you feel! If you do not feel good, find a way to do so!
You see through my results what happens when you do.
Anywho, tomorrow I am charged with 2 tests and a quiz, so I must study. Though I know that I will ace them all, no stress. Good night!
Apr 4, 2010
Question (Day 35:4/4/10)
Hi Hi!
What's the good news?
Another wonderful day indeed! I managed to get my work done early, and got home early so that I could work on my paper due tomorrow. Nothing huge to share, and I don't have any lessons or anything...so I want to ask a question!
What is your favorite movie and why?
I assure there is more or less a reason for my asking. I will touch on it another time! Well this paper will not write itself! Or will it? Hahaha
What's the good news?
Another wonderful day indeed! I managed to get my work done early, and got home early so that I could work on my paper due tomorrow. Nothing huge to share, and I don't have any lessons or anything...so I want to ask a question!
What is your favorite movie and why?
I assure there is more or less a reason for my asking. I will touch on it another time! Well this paper will not write itself! Or will it? Hahaha
Apr 3, 2010
What is that smell??? (Day 34: 4/3/10)
What's the good news?
Hi everyone! What a beautiful day this was! I relaxed before going to work. A new wave of good story ideas hit me hard while I was at work, so I am hoping to write them all down before I go to sleep so that I don't forget them all!
How was your day?
A funny thing happened at work today. There was a particular customer who came by and she had this, very loud scent to her. It was sooo strange because the scent was familiar. I found myself thinking about my great-grandmother who passed away last year. Has that ever happened to you? Have you ever smelled something that brought back so many memories of a person who has passed on?
Haha, I remember all the interesting things about my great-grandmother. How she kept plastic on her couches in her living room and kept the house hot so visitors would be all sweaty. Haha.
Anyway, I hope that you continue to enjoy the music, and have a great Sunday!
Hi everyone! What a beautiful day this was! I relaxed before going to work. A new wave of good story ideas hit me hard while I was at work, so I am hoping to write them all down before I go to sleep so that I don't forget them all!
How was your day?
A funny thing happened at work today. There was a particular customer who came by and she had this, very loud scent to her. It was sooo strange because the scent was familiar. I found myself thinking about my great-grandmother who passed away last year. Has that ever happened to you? Have you ever smelled something that brought back so many memories of a person who has passed on?
Haha, I remember all the interesting things about my great-grandmother. How she kept plastic on her couches in her living room and kept the house hot so visitors would be all sweaty. Haha.
Anyway, I hope that you continue to enjoy the music, and have a great Sunday!
SOOOOOOOOO BUSAAYYY
Haha ive been busy and its all good but im good just a little stressed out. I keep in mind that i know everything will work out okay. I just stay positive and put a smile on my face
Apr 2, 2010
SURPRISE! Music! (Day 33: 4/2/10)
What's the good news!
Surprise! In case you haven't noticed yet, I have added a playlist to the sidebar of the blog for your enjoyment. Now, Delia, what's the big deal? Anyone can get a playlist, so what?
Well there is a point to this! I decided to post about it because it has been something on my mind for a while.
It all started about 10-15 days ago when I was jamming in the car like usual. A song came on and I did not hesitate to sing along because that's just what I do. But the more and more I paid attention to the lyrics, I kept thinking, "hmm, these lyrics aren't exactly positive..." and me being the person I am, I actually pick up the feeling of the song as I sing along (even if it's about anger or heartache).
That's not very productive to what I'm doing here. I mean, how on earth am I going to expect a boyfriend feeling/singing songs that have lyrics that go, "Why does love always feel like a battlefield?" How does one move on from past relationships with reminders of bitterness with songs like, "Gives you Hell" or "Bust the windows Out your car?"? I hate to say it, but every single time I hear Beyonce's "Single Ladies" I get the urge to throw stuff in my ex-boyfriend's face. That's not productive. At all. Why? That's because it is giving attention to the fact that yes, he hurt me, and for some odd reason, I want him to hurt like I did. What exactly is that going to do for me???
Seriously. Think about it, every time you wanted to get back at someone for something that they did to you. What would their pain, anger, irritation, what have you, what would that do for you? And don't kid me out with that, "Oh, I'd feel better." Really? Would you? Them feeling at odds is really going to take away that negative feeling you had, and apparently still have? Ah, that sounds a bit angry. Let me tone that down because I'm actually talking to myself here, haha. Anyway, here's my advice. Just let it go.
Furthermore, how on earth do you expect to have a gorgeous beautiful day with a song such as, "You had a bad day?" Don't get me wrong, these are all great songs, I actually like every song I have mentioned up to this point.
But what I am trying to say is that most of us love lyrics because we can relate to them in some way. They remind us of something that we have experienced, good or bad. So if we are attempting 100% at creating our own reality and living the good life, feeling good now, shouldn't we strive to only relate to things that feel good? Music, leisure reading, television, whatever? We should listen to music that makes us feel good. We should listen to music that helps us send positive vibrations out into the universe!
So that is what I did. You'll notice that there are only 17 songs, that's just what I am starting with. It's actually harder than I thought to find songs that didn't have some sort of negativity in it. The search continues! My goal was to find songs with both positive lyrics, AND songs that just plain feel good. Hope you like it!
Oh, and I tried to find a little bit of everything because I know that different people listen to different things. I actually love all of these songs, haha. By the way, yes, I know that one or two of the songs have pretty obvious meaning...but you know what, the lyrics completely fit what we're doing here! I won't hate on a song that feels good and has great lyrics :P
Well that's about it. I hope you enjoy the playlist, and swing by whenever you want to listen to songs that are in line with your alignment to the universe. I will continue to add songs, so don't worry about it being so short.
I hope that you have enjoyed this gracious beautiful day! I know I did! I got to get a haircut outside as the critters were being active. It was awesome! Tomorrow is supposed to be even hotter, so yank on some shorts and take a fun walk or something. Or don't; do what feels good! Haha! Good night!
Surprise! In case you haven't noticed yet, I have added a playlist to the sidebar of the blog for your enjoyment. Now, Delia, what's the big deal? Anyone can get a playlist, so what?
Well there is a point to this! I decided to post about it because it has been something on my mind for a while.
It all started about 10-15 days ago when I was jamming in the car like usual. A song came on and I did not hesitate to sing along because that's just what I do. But the more and more I paid attention to the lyrics, I kept thinking, "hmm, these lyrics aren't exactly positive..." and me being the person I am, I actually pick up the feeling of the song as I sing along (even if it's about anger or heartache).
That's not very productive to what I'm doing here. I mean, how on earth am I going to expect a boyfriend feeling/singing songs that have lyrics that go, "Why does love always feel like a battlefield?" How does one move on from past relationships with reminders of bitterness with songs like, "Gives you Hell" or "Bust the windows Out your car?"? I hate to say it, but every single time I hear Beyonce's "Single Ladies" I get the urge to throw stuff in my ex-boyfriend's face. That's not productive. At all. Why? That's because it is giving attention to the fact that yes, he hurt me, and for some odd reason, I want him to hurt like I did. What exactly is that going to do for me???
Seriously. Think about it, every time you wanted to get back at someone for something that they did to you. What would their pain, anger, irritation, what have you, what would that do for you? And don't kid me out with that, "Oh, I'd feel better." Really? Would you? Them feeling at odds is really going to take away that negative feeling you had, and apparently still have? Ah, that sounds a bit angry. Let me tone that down because I'm actually talking to myself here, haha. Anyway, here's my advice. Just let it go.
Furthermore, how on earth do you expect to have a gorgeous beautiful day with a song such as, "You had a bad day?" Don't get me wrong, these are all great songs, I actually like every song I have mentioned up to this point.
But what I am trying to say is that most of us love lyrics because we can relate to them in some way. They remind us of something that we have experienced, good or bad. So if we are attempting 100% at creating our own reality and living the good life, feeling good now, shouldn't we strive to only relate to things that feel good? Music, leisure reading, television, whatever? We should listen to music that makes us feel good. We should listen to music that helps us send positive vibrations out into the universe!
So that is what I did. You'll notice that there are only 17 songs, that's just what I am starting with. It's actually harder than I thought to find songs that didn't have some sort of negativity in it. The search continues! My goal was to find songs with both positive lyrics, AND songs that just plain feel good. Hope you like it!
Oh, and I tried to find a little bit of everything because I know that different people listen to different things. I actually love all of these songs, haha. By the way, yes, I know that one or two of the songs have pretty obvious meaning...but you know what, the lyrics completely fit what we're doing here! I won't hate on a song that feels good and has great lyrics :P
Well that's about it. I hope you enjoy the playlist, and swing by whenever you want to listen to songs that are in line with your alignment to the universe. I will continue to add songs, so don't worry about it being so short.
I hope that you have enjoyed this gracious beautiful day! I know I did! I got to get a haircut outside as the critters were being active. It was awesome! Tomorrow is supposed to be even hotter, so yank on some shorts and take a fun walk or something. Or don't; do what feels good! Haha! Good night!
Apr 1, 2010
Beautiful Days are Beautiful! (Day 32: 4/1/10)
WHAT'S THE GOOD NEWS?!?!
I really can't think of anything to say on account of my eyes being almost shut but today was so beautiful! I got a lot of work done in the library, and got to watch the beautiful weather.
I used releasing techniques to get out of heavy traffic, and also to get through a particularly busy workday that left me exhausted and late getting home. I'm really proud of myself.
See the thing is, I think that I am at the point where I can recognize my negative thoughts and emotions as soon as it happens. I used to think it, and then after something happened, I would realize, "hmm, maybe if I had changed the direction of my thinking, this wouldn't have happened." I mean a few negative things still float by, but I am more aware now and catch myself and change up my thoughts as soon as it happens.
The only thing I find myself regretting about today is that I didn't go outside and enjoy nature. I hear the weather will be nice all weekend, so I plan on getting out there! I hope you do too!
I really can't think of anything to say on account of my eyes being almost shut but today was so beautiful! I got a lot of work done in the library, and got to watch the beautiful weather.
I used releasing techniques to get out of heavy traffic, and also to get through a particularly busy workday that left me exhausted and late getting home. I'm really proud of myself.
See the thing is, I think that I am at the point where I can recognize my negative thoughts and emotions as soon as it happens. I used to think it, and then after something happened, I would realize, "hmm, maybe if I had changed the direction of my thinking, this wouldn't have happened." I mean a few negative things still float by, but I am more aware now and catch myself and change up my thoughts as soon as it happens.
The only thing I find myself regretting about today is that I didn't go outside and enjoy nature. I hear the weather will be nice all weekend, so I plan on getting out there! I hope you do too!
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